Sunday, October 15, 2023

Third Quarter 2023 Update: Boredom Hack, Net Worth, Side Hustles, Taxes

I've had a breakthrough.

Here's a question: how much poor stock market performance is due to boredom? As in, if we're bored with our lives, are we turning to the markets purely for entertainment? For example, the speculative extremes during the pandemic may have been caused by people having nothing better to do.

In my own case, it's a likely factor in much of my own bad behavior. I have periods, especially since moving abroad, where I feel directionless. Due to the lack of upward mobility of my day job, it's hard to get excited about it when I'm at home. My wife can't absorb all of my neediness (nor should she be expected to, of course), but it has to go somewhere. My stock market life became an obsession and a fantasy, where maybe, just maybe, I could find the formula to let me bail on my day job and its constrictions.

This singular focus on it did some good things for me. Learning about companies is learning about the world. However, the anxiety of watching the market plagued my mental health. As a result, I've made a number of decisions that were poor and have led to head-scratching consequences. "What was I thinking?" has been a recurrent thought.

Two things have lightened my mental load. The first is having bitten the bullet and moved to mutual funds. Taking some of the pressure off of my individual stock positions came with an unfortunate tax bill (more on that later), but the concomitant reduction in anxiety has been worth it. The second is the reinvigorization of my side hustles. Over the summer, one of them got new life breathed into it. Having somewhere else to project my ambitions has been great for me.

Being too busy to worry about markets is an incredible hack. I go days now without looking at my portfolio's performance. It exists and does its thing. Honestly, as clever as I think the Wiseguy Portfolio is, I'm considering simplifying it even further because I want to spend even less time worrying about it and fiddling with it. Because there are more dividends from different funds coming in at any given time, and because I need to occasionally rebalance all these different funds, it gives me more chances to look at it and worry. It also eats up time that I could be using productively elsewhere.

I haven't made a final decision about that.

Net Worth

Our net worth increased quarter over quarter to $150,992 and €142,714, which is a quarter-over-quarter gain of 1.27% and 4.81% respectively.

The third quarter generally sees a lot of income come in (haha), which offset some of the market shenanigans. I got my summer bonus, and my wife also got some good-sized payments from her customers. Since our vacations were modest this year, we didn't have large summer outflows, and she could work more often uninteruptted.

The past two months have seen high market volatility, and my portfolio was hit. Bonds have been especially strongly hit, but some of my individual stocks have been beaten up too. Green Brick Partners, for example, has had a rough go of it due to some bad news in the mortgage market as well as Greenlight Capital selling a sizable chunk of their position to rebalance.

Side Hustle

One of my side hustles generated some sales, but I also had expenses that more than offset those. I'm trying to sell some things to keep the hit in line, but so far, I've been unsuccessful. I've also gotten a refund on one expensive item that will show up the next time I write one of these.

I want this side hustle to become a profit generator for me, and that's where most of my ambitious energy has been directed. The upside is that making wild swings in the side hustle might lead to imperfect results and some wasted money, but it won't lead to disaster like a bunch of stock trades can. And if I can make even a few multiples of profit on my invested money, I can have a return generator greater than most of my stock positions.

Taxes

In 2022, when I moved a lot of money to mutual funds, I did this by selling a bunch of individual stocks. This has led to a large tax bill in Germany, whis has taken me by surprise because I had a loss in the US.

The culprit was, besides myself, the weakened euro. Some of my trades were purchased when the euro was at a high point and sold when the euro was at a low point. This made gains more valuable and losses less potent. Because nearly all of my positions are dollar-denominated, I couldn't see my mistake, and as such, I had enough gains to have to accrue my first capital gains tax in Germany. Oops.

That hit hasn't landed in our net worth statement yet, but it's coming.

It's made me realize that it's very hard for me to determine the euro cost basis of my positions. I knew that I'd sold during a weak time for the euro, but I didn't realize that the difference would be that extreme. However, to determine my liability, I'd have to track every single lot purchase in a spreadsheet. Interactive Brokers does not provide good cross-currency tax planning tools, and if I don't do it myself, I'll just walk into this trap over and over again.

Final Thoughts

Even with the missteps, this was a good quarter. I feel relaxed about money for the first time in years, and I feel like I have somewhere to direct my creative energies outside of my day job.

We'll have some big costs coming up. My wife wants to see her family over Thanksgiving. The aforementioned tax bill will hit. I still have some investments I need to make in this side hustle. Hopefully, these costs are offset somewhat by some additional side hustle sales, some sales of personal items, and increased income from our day jobs. As for the stock market, it's anyone's guess.

Until next time, stay healthy.

Tuesday, July 4, 2023

2023 First Half Update

2023 Second Quarter Update:

The first quarter was full of re-evaluations of financial goals and strategies and was full of fear over impending disaster in my family. Back then, we had to make difficult decisions and have difficult conversations.

The second quarter of 2023 was much milder.

New All-Time High

After a year and a half of being in a net worth drawdown, we emerged at the end of June at a new all-time high. We're just shy of $150,000 at $149,097/€136,162. That's a quarter-over-quarter rise of 10.05%/9.05%.

The 2022 bear market, although not extreme by historical standards, was the worst extended drawdown we've had to live with during our married lives. Despite some losses, there were no disasters in our portfolios, and the stress lead to some necessary reappraisals of how best to allocate savings. I'm grateful for the lesson and happy to allocate most money to an ETF/mutual fund asset mix. While my stock picking has done well this year, I feel safer knowing that all of our eggs aren't in that basket.

The drawdown was exasperated by the drawdown of our incomes. My wife has a lull in her business as she changed strategies, and my extra income opportunities at work dried up. As the market corrected, we were unable to add money in any kind of aggressive way. However, both of those states have started to change: I've found new sources for additional work, and my wife's new business strategy is starting to pay off. It's exciting.

Family Disaster Averted

After much Sturm und Drang back in January and February, it appears that PoorParent will stay put. Staying put means staying in an uncomfortable but stable situation with a family member who has health problems.

It's clear that PoorParent isn't thrilled with this, but they also don't appear to be angry at me and Sib.

Honestly, Sib did most of the heavy lifting. I helped Sib define their own boundaries and see how they weren't respecting their own limits and desires. This lack of self-respect led to Sib not respecting my limits. But once Sib understood this, they had the uncomfortable conversation with PoorParent. Thus far, admittedly, I haven't spoken to PoorParent about my worries. They haven't brought it up, and I won't either.

Portfolio Performance

My individual stock portfolio returned 19.91% in the first half. This was mostly led by Greenbrick Partners and Apple Inc. Greenbrick is now a 1 bagger. It's had astounding performance. But so has Apple! Frankly, if there's any greatest mistake I've made while investing, it's selling even one share of Apple, and unfortunately, I've sold many more than one.

The laggard was Abbvie, which is facing increasing competition from Humira biosimilars. I may add more to the position if its price nears my purchase price.

The Wiseguy Portfolio as I've implemented it is hard to measure. Because it's across three different accounts and uses Vanguard "Admiral" funds in addition to ETFs, it means that getting close to the target weights is currently very tricky. Additionally, the iteration of the portfolio I call Wiseguy 2.0, which includes REITs, didn't take place until a few months ago.

An idealized version of the portfolio returned 12.07% in the first half of 2023. That underperformed the S&P 500, which returned 16.81%.

Second Half Financial Goals

As of yesterday, I have maxed out our 2023 IRA contributions. I put the final $2,000 into the US REITs portion because I refuse to hold a REITs ETF in my taxable accounts. Currently, I'm overweight REITs and US large-cap growth and through the rest of the year, I'll be adding to gold and the small cap value buckets in my taxable account.

We're also rebuilding our emergency fund. If we aim for 6 months of spending, then we need around €16,000, which we're not close to. I'm not planning on pulling a Ramsey and devoting every euro to that goal, however, and I will simply be adding monthly sums to it in addition to other saving. That kind of single-minded focus doesn't make sense when I have plenty of assets, and the risk to my livelihood is so low in comparison to the American "at will" employment reality.

That said, having extra cash would be reassuring.

We've also begun a small down payment fund. We're not devoting large sums to it yet, but it's frustrating not having anything saved for a better living situation.

My wife suggested a dog fund. We both want a dog someday, but we're concerned about the cost, so we've begun saving for it.

Wrap Up

I don't see any disasters on the horizon. The stock markets could always take a dive, which would be both a bummer and an opportunity. No matter what, we'll keep saving as best we can without running afoul of our dual tax situation. Until next time, stay healthy and keep saving. It adds up over time!

Thursday, April 13, 2023

2023 First Quarter Update

When I decided to move to a quarterly posting schedule for these updates, I did so out of fear that I was getting repetitive. How many times could I write, "Net worth was up/down a bit... Mostly it was thanks to stocks one way or the other"?

Pretty dull.

The first quarter of 2023 was not dull, however. The consequences of one conversation rippled outward and touched all areas of our financial lives.

The Texts That Launched 1,000 Ships

One Sunday in January, I got a series of texts from my sibling (hereafter Sib) regarding my poor parent (hereafter PoorParent). It was a horrible conversation full of disagreements.

I've thought about writing more details about this, but it's much too personal. Long story short, the worries I laid out in My Baby Boomer Parent is Poor are threatening us much earlier than I had anticipated. The reality for me and Sib is that supporting PoorParent right now is only possible by severely limiting our lives in other ways. It would also make it more difficult to help PoorParent in the future when more dire situations arise.

Sib agrees with me now, but getting there was an unpleasant path.

Enter Dave Ramsey

I went to YouTube and looked up advice for people in my situation. There's hardly any, which is shocking, and the only person out there really talking about the duties or lack thereof of children when it comes to supporting their elderly poor parents is Dave Ramsey. So Dave Ramsey re-entered my life for the first time since I read his book Total Money Makeover back in 2009.

Although I'm not a pure Ramsey-ite, Dave's thinking has deeply influenced mine. Many of my money concepts can be directly linked to The Total Money Makeover. I've been budgeting for that long because, well, he told me too. I've become a true budget believer, and so has my wife. Even our "Blow" category is directly taken from his budget outline. Suffice it to say, I was primed to listen to what he had to say.

One thing that became clear was that I'm allowed to say no. To use his metaphor, I'm allowed to put on my own financial oxygen mask before I help other people, and that includes my parents.

Additionally, I now suspect that Sib and I had been enabling PoorParent. We can only take so much responsibility because we were much younger, but I can look to specific choices that PoorParent made that were emotionally and/or logistically supported by us. Had we gone along with fewer of these choices, we might currently have a better situation on our hands.

Tchüss, Debt

I was taking too much risk. That giant loan I took out in August 2021 was dumb. Sure, the interest rate was rock bottom, but so what? The monthly payments were annoying, and they limited our actual choices.

In February, I mostly paid it off after selling off a bunch of my individual stock positions. There's a pre-payment penalty for nearly all German debt, so I left slightly more than three scheduled payments to avoid that trap. You'll see a big change in the assets and liabilities of our net worth chart.

My thinking about the loan was wrong from the beginning.

FOMO

Reflecting, I got the loan after visiting America and feeling FOMO. I had this sense that I should do something, which is not a great emotional place from which to make decisions.

Most of the time, as I'm learning, the adult choice is just to keep on doing smart stable things. As Dave Ramsey describes it, his baby steps 4 and onward are pretty boring. Saving for retirement takes time, dedication, and patience. It's exciting in terms of the power of compound interest, but otherwise, it's a boring process. I've listened now to many calls into his show where someone has had a windfall and wants to do something to maximize their return on that money. For most people, the correct answer is to simply pay off any debt and their mortgage, and invest in mutual funds. This advice is often unsatisfactory for the caller, however.

Since I've become much less tolerant of holding individual stocks, the cognitive dissonance of being in debt while holding individual stocks became unbearable for me. I have no idea if I'm any good at picking stocks. For someone like me, borrowing money while owning individual stocks is especially dumb. I've learned in the past that my thinking goes crazy when I leveraged a position, and sure enough, I felt perpetually crazy.

The risk I had taken was:

  • Job loss risk and risk that I couldn't make the future payments
  • Increased risk of emotional volatility leading to poor decisions
  • Currency rate risk (borrowed in euros to buy in dollars)
  • Opportunity cost since that income was tied to monthly payments

It also bothered me philosophically that I was in debt. I liked being out of debt, and it was a point of pride that I'd paid off my student loans early. Along the way, yes, I had some installment plans, but there was never any interest attached. But now, I was in debt and paying interest. Yuck.

But even those installment plans need to be a thing of the past. Making choices for future me to pay for stuff is a mean thing to do to myself. It also assumes that the future looks like the present, which is not guaranteed.

Re-enter the IRA

During my Dave Ramsey rabbit hole, I listened to the Chris Hogan book "Everyday Millionaires" and read Ramsey's "Baby Steps Millionaires". One of the statistics was that most millionaires did it by steadily adding to their 401k plans. I hadn't added to my IRA since 2012, which was my loss because the money I'd put in between 2008 and 2012 - a total of $1,750 - had quintupled.

Therefore, after a decade of avoidance and fear, I've decided to continue adding to my IRA. For expats, this is tricky but doable. I'll have to use the Foreign Tax Credit rather than the Foreign Earned Income Exclusion to prevent tax payments to the US. This is more work, but having tax-sheltered investments is too important.

Wiseguy 2.0

I'll continue adding to the Wiseguy Portfolio allocation across my various accounts. Using Portfolio Performance, this is relatively easy to do with the Asset Allocation feature.

I've made an adjustment to weightings, however, which I'm thinking of as Wiseguy 2.0. There's now a 10% weighting to REITs, now that there's a tax-sheltered place for me to put them. REITs in a taxable account are dumb dumb dumb, which is why I left them out before. Within the REIT basket is a 25% allocation to ex-US REITs, so 2.5% of the total portfolio. That may seem paltry, but the fees on the Vanguard ex-US REIT fund are high. I'd like exposure, but until the fees come down more, I can't justify a heavy weighting.

To make space for the 10%, I've reduced the bond allocation to 10% from 20%. I'm taking more risk, which means that any future drawdowns will likely be more stomach-churning. However, I'm hoping this will also lead to long-term greater returns. I can't access my IRA money for another 30 years after all.

So Wiseguy 2.0 is this:

  • 25% US Small Cap Value
  • 25% US Large Cap Growth
  • 25% ex-US Small Cap Value
  • 10% Long-term bonds (both Treasury and Corporates)
  • 10% REITs (75% US/25% ex-US)
  • 5% Gold

Net Worth

Image: A stacked bar chart of our net worth over time. Click to enlarge.

As of March 31, 2023, our net worth rose since December by 8.22% in USD and 6.83% in EUR to $135,357 and €124,753 respectively. Liquid net worth is $99,747.

This new chart is meant to simplify viewing. The previous style was pretty difficult to read, and this new iteration makes it clearer. It also, perhaps a bit pretentiously, uses typical business accounting terms for some items, such as "Cash and cash equivalents". "Accounts receivable" at this point means strictly dividends for which the ex-dividend date has passed.

Stock Performance

Stocks have more or less been in an uptrend. Of the Wiseguy components, US large-cap growth, gold, and bonds have all done very well. Small-cap value has performed poorly, likely as a result of banking industry volatility. The purchase of the REIT funds accidentally corresponded with a bounce for that asset class, which wasn't intentional but worked out in my favor.

Spending

In addition to the big macro money moves, we've also re-committed to following our budget. We reined in our grocery spending, cut down on subscriptions, and otherwise made choices that resulted in lower spending overall. I'm also turning reward points (classified as "intangible assets") into groceries or money as much as I can.

We did buy a plane ticket for my wife to visit her family in the States. That was necessary. However, we've declined to go on a big vacation this summer in the US. This was a secondary set of conversations with my family that were difficult, but I'm at peace about it.

Simultaneously, the elimination of the debt also eliminated the lifetime interest cost, which I had added to the liabilities side of our balance sheet. That was about €2,000.

Second Quarter Forecast

Considering how much activity there was in the past three months, it's hard to consider what might happen in the next three. Here's some of what we know:

Our heating bill has gone up a lot. We'll have to eat a big upfront cost in April, and our monthly warm rent will rise. That's a bummer, but it's the situation Germany finds itself in.

My wife and I will likely plan some modest trip for the two of us. We'll probably pay for it before the end of June.

I'm going to aggressively add to my IRA until I hit the max for 2023. $6500 is a doable number, and I hope to never miss hitting the max ever again. I doubt I'll get there by the end of June though.

The last debt payment will be gone at the end of May. Good riddance.

Until next time, stay healthy and avoid FOMO.

Monday, January 23, 2023

December 2022: Update and Full Year Summary

December was a great month. We had family visit us from the US over Christmas for the very first time. We traveled some. We ate some great meals and had a lot of laughs.

However, December was also the first time that our net worth was down in every metric that I track. There are four comparisons at the top of my spreadsheet: USD month over month, EUR month over month, USD year over year, and EUR year over year. For the first time, all of these metrics were negative.

Just like the stock market isn't the economy, your net worth isn't your life. But since this is a money blog, let's focus on the money part of things.

Net Worth Changes

Image: chart of our net worth in USD over time

In December, our net worth fell to $125,071/€116,780, which represents the following changes:

Metric Percentage
Y/Y USD -14.23%
Y/Y EUR -8.79
M/M USD -2.53%
M/M EUR -5.71%

Maybe I can assuage my disappointment by creating a new metric: quarter over quarter. How's that look?

Metric Percentage
Q/Q USD 6.83%
Q/Q EUR -2.25%

So now one metric shows improvement. I'll take the win where I can I guess.

Our liquid net worth stood at $95,876/€89,521.

So what's up?

Inflation Devours All

The obvious big story is this:

  • Due to the war, supply chain, stimulus programs, and energy shocks, inflation rose drastically.
  • The Federal Reserve and other major central banks raised their benchmark interest rates to counteract this.
  • Since the present value of equities is all future cash flows discounted to the present, both the discount rate and the - assumed - poorer quality of those cash flows put downward pressure on the value of stocks.
  • Rising interest rates caused bond prices to fall.

We were not spared from this, and I took some serious hits on the large number of growth companies I had in my portfolio. They weren't the worst growth companies to have owned, but they were hit very hard anyway.

I took some steps to protect myself. In my IRAs, I sold in February due to trend following rules being triggered, which protected us there. I decided to reduce my exposure to individual companies and create the Wiseguy Portfolio, which is a kind of "all seasons" portfolio.

Image: Chart of portfolios in 2022: Green is my IRA, teal is my ETF account containing the Wiseguy Portfolio (started in May), red is S&P 500 benchmark, black is all portfolios together, yellow is individual stocks.

Finally, the effect of rising interest rates has caused a reduction in the estimated value of my pension. Since the pension is discounted at the rate of the 10 year treasury, rising rates reduce the future value. In a sense, this value is both real and imaginary; I'll never be able to pull out all this cash one way or the other, but I do have a guaranteed income stream in addition to government social security. It has value.

Spending

I've created a Sankey diagram that documents the flow of our money. For practical reasons, the numbers are slightly different in some cases compared to our actual budget, but overall this represents money received and spent/allocated well.

Image: A Sankey diagram showing the flow of money from income sources to spending categories.

Excluding tax, social security, and health insurance costs, our largest expenses fall into these categories:

  • Rent (warm) (€10956.81)
  • Groceries (€5984.66)
  • My BLOW money (€4605.97)
  • Travel costs (€3532.05)
  • Her BLOW money (€3532.05)

A reminder: BLOW is anything we buy that is personal and doesn't require discussing with the other partner.

You can see the mark of inflation on our two largest household expenses. Our rent was raised in August, which was a bummer that upset my equilibrium for a while. Our grocery bill for the year rose from €5,158.22 in 2021 to €5984.66, which is a ~16% jump. Some of that could be carelessness on our part, but some is definitely climbing prices.

Our travel costs included a trip to the US for her, a trip to the US for me, a few weeks of fun in Europe in the summer, and a late year trip with the family who visited us over the holidays. As much as I'd like this number to be lower, there's a reality that an expat who has good relationships with his family will also likely have recurring large travel expenses to contend with.

Image: Chart of the EURUSD price in 2022

Unfortunately, my US trip coincided with a weak period for the euro against the dollar. This made the trip much more painful than it otherwise might have been.

Mindset Changes

There were three major changes in how I view our financial goals in 2022.

Cash

At several points, I felt hemmed in and without options. The most acute phase of this happened when we had our rent raised, but it was a recurring theme in the second half of the year. Yes, we had stock assets, but should we ever actually experience and emergency, our stock wealth would have to be sold off to actually give us flexibility. This increasingly felt intolerable to me, since I was sort of mentally double spending that money: it was both meant as a long term savings but also potentially a bail out, emergency, house, career change fund. It was untenable.

So we are now allocating much more towards cash. Savings accounts both in the US and Germany actually pay something now (though it's still crazy low in Germany). This allows us to pursue opportunities the way a big stock allocation can't.

The Implausibility of FIRE

It is unlikely that we will be able to retire early in any significant way. Perhaps that will change, but it won't change in the next few years, and in acknowledging that reality, I have to ask some questions.

For example, are there other career paths that might be more rewarding? If we have to work anyway, then why not do something that is genuinely enjoyable during that time? Perhaps staying put is the best option, but I should create the space where that's a choice rather than mandatory.

So much of the online financial world is fixated on this idea, that to acknowledge it may never be reality for us feels like a failure. However, my desire is to keep working. It always was, and the FIRE idea was mostly a way to give myself permission to pursue avenues that I find more fulfilling.

Stock Picking

Until this year, I'd exclusively been a stock picker. The US extraterritorial taxation regime has made the purchase of mutual funds tricky, and I'd believed I'd be able to handle individual stocks as the container for all our long term wealth.

It's safe to say that I was wrong.

I've grown as an investor, but I still make silly mistakes that should probably make it clear that stock picking ought not be my primary savings strategy. Yes, I've become less trigger happy, but I'm still too damned trigger happy. Just in the past few months, I sold several securities too early and missed out on rebounds. And my analysis is often rudimentary at best.

I've also discovered that focusing on stocks is not the best use of my time from a "quality of life" point of view. It's stressful and distracting. I have better questions to focus on and better uses of my time than worrying about whether such and such company faces an existential threat or is just going through a rough patch.

My returns thus far - while not catastrophic - align with returns I could more easily achieve by buying ETFs, and so that's what I'm mostly doing now. I just hope that the US/Germany thing doesn't bite me in the ass; if Germany adopts a PFIC type punitive taxation regime again for foreign mutual funds, I'm SOL. But best to save those worries for the future.

2023

The four big questions hanging over me now and likely throughout the year are as follows:

  • Do I change jobs and potentially enter a riskier line of work in the hopes of greater life satisfaction and potential long term economic benefits? Or do I remain as I am now: basking in the weird safety of my current position, but potentially plagued by long term doubts around what might have been?
  • How do I allocate limited savings for a potential risky life change?
  • Do we participate in an expensive vacation that my family has planned out? We participated this year in Europe, but in summer 2023, it's further away and likely much more expensive. This is part of a larger question around family expectations and travel. I should probably write about this, but in general, I feel a lot of pressure to travel to see family, even though the prices are often higher for me, and my income is lower than the other people participating in the trip.
  • Does the ticking time bomb of my poor Baby Boomer parent finally explode. There have been indications just in the past month that it might.

One change to the blog is that I will switch to quarterly updates rather than monthly. I find that I repeat myself too often month to month in these updates, and the movements within a month are often noisy.

With that, I leave you for now and wish you a happy and healthy 2023 full of great moments that let you forget about any financial stress you may have.