On June 26, when I took the monthly measurement, our net worth had risen in the prior month by 1.74% in USD and 3.87% in EUR to $102,269 and €85,653 respectively. Year over year, that's a 50.4% and 41.33% rise in USD and EUR respectively.
We've essentially returned to where we were in May with slight changes to the overall relationships between various accounts. As I wrote in earlier updates, we haven't been able to actually save much in the past few months, so the gyrations of our stock portfolios have been entirely of their own volition.
Stock Shenanigans
Now, I enabled this volatility a bit by selling and buying some things, but there wasn't really much of a period where any of the proceeds of those sales sat in cash.
May provided one of those confounding periods that I wish I were better at predicting. After I sold some stocks, I purchased different shares. When the first stocks fell, I felt vindicated. When the newly purchased shares also fell, I felt like a fool. My instinct to sell had been right, but my rush to buy was not, and much of the frustration I felt in the past two months could have been reduced had I sat on my hands a bit longer and allowed volatility to help me out and make me feel like a genius trader.
That said, in the long run, it won't matter. I can barely remember the various agonies I've experienced since buying my first shares. Eventually this small irritation in May and June will fade like those others I've forgotten in the past. It's all the more reason to avoid making large blunders that make these periods unforgettable.
The one thing that might have been such a blunder was my sale of Cloudflare. This is not a stock tip. Following the sale, I experienced serious regret and a nagging sense that I had made a long-term blunder. I even dreamed about it. After analyzing the company to a greater extent than I did when I first bought the shares in 2019 on a whim, I've decided to average back into it. Make of that what you will. My other sales haven't distressed me, so this will be a good gauge of my instincts as the years play out.
Taxes
We had to move some money out of savings and into the hands of the German federal government by paying our estimated taxes. If we're overpaying, we probably won't see that money again until the end of 2021 with the lag times between receiving the necessary paperwork, the tax preparer's time, and the pace of the German Finanzamt.
In America, I found doing taxes to be kind of fun and easy. I studiously learned the rules as best I could and filed on time every year. When I moved abroad, I knew I needed to file a US return as well, which I've always done.
But taxes have become a drag and a source of dread. Almost none of that feeling has come from paying taxes, but instead it's the vast quantities of paperwork and organization we're required to maintain along with the conflicting rules of two countries that drive me to anxiety and occasional despair.
It appears I've missed something in all my US filings, and now we're going through the IRS' Streamlined Procedure because the risks posed by the outlandish penalties are too high to ignore. Namely, I misunderstood the FBAR (IRS Report of Foreign Bank and Financial Accounts) and how some of my arrangements in Germany might, repeat, might have been reportable. No one can say with certainty whether they are or not, but because the potential penalties are so extreme, and because I'm already in the IRS system, I can't ignore them.
So now we're paying a firm to help us, and in the days before I fly to America to re-establish my relationships with my blood relatives, I'm reassembling three years of data to prove to the IRS country that we don't owe taxes and that we weren't trying to hide money from them. Along the way, I'm learning the other small ways in which U.S. expats are screwed by the US' tax system and it's hard not to feel like our country hates us. Charlie Munger exhorts people to never feel sorry for themselves ("I know self-pity is stupid"), and I try to keep that in mind to keep plunging forward in this task, but that sense of injustice and unfairness grates like sand in my shoes.
June Outlook
We will have to pay the aforementioned tax preparer in June, and I will likely have elevated spending while in the US. Otherwise, I'm hoping for not too many surprises. Because I received my summer bonus, I had some extra money to save, which I've done. Should we receive any of the various stimulus checks from the US or the mythical refund for our overpaid 2019 German taxes, we'll have a boost.
Happy Independence Day to any American readers, and I wish you health and happiness. Until next time.
